After weeks of tapering Celexa, I finally reached zero last weekend. And while I still have two other antidepressants floating around in me, my personality seems to have shifted. I have become angry and agitated.
What scares me most is that I no longer know the "real me". Without the meds, am I really an angry person? Or is the "real me" when I'm on the meds?
I feel totally overwhelmed.
I'm going through the same thing. I don't know what is the result of withdrawal and what is the real me. You're right, it can make a person feel totally overwhelmed.
ReplyDeleteI often wonder about this with myself, too. And I still don't have any answers...
ReplyDeleteI too wonder, but I am not on any meds at all. So, I don't know if I am truly angry, or what. Probably truly angry with actually feeling all that is going on and digging up past crud to deal with.
ReplyDeleteSorry, could not really relate to this one with you Penelope, but I just wanted to share my perspective.
My son has always not wanted to take meds because he feels it will give him a personality that is not his own. I, on the other hand, believe that the personality, thoughts, and emotions that I have on meds are for the most part the ones I would have or would like to have if I were "well". It's possible in your case that tapering off is like quitting smoking -- you are altered and miserable for awhile until the substance is completely out of your system and your body has had time to adjust to being without it. That could be a long process.
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