Depression. I'm pretty sure it has come back.
Today's feeling of tiredness isn't the usual, more physical feeling of fatigue that I'm used to. This time it is a sense of deep apathy...like getting up sounds nice, but staying in bed is just easier.
I've been trying to go for a walk now for the past four hours. I haven't even made it to my shoes yet. The heaviness feels unbearable.
We've had some stressful issues to deal with lately, and when I think about them, my eyes tear up and I feel overwhelmed.
Where did this come from?! I was doing SO well. I was back on the treadmill, even running for up to 15 minutes. This time last week I was thinking I might be able to get back to school again soon.
Is it even remotely possible that the T3 has triggered this? I know it seems unlikely, but that's the only change I've made recently.
Now I just want to lie down in a dark room and close my eyes.
I hate, hate, hate depression.
So sorry that you're going through this. Having been through a few depressive episodes, I can relate to how overwhelmingly awful and frustrating they can be. I hope this is short-lived and that there are much brighter days on the other side for you.
ReplyDeleteSol Diner, Thank you so much for your kind words. I think anyone who hasn't had a depressive episode cannot imagine what it feels like to go through one. I'm fighting this one and I have a feeling I'm winning this round :-)
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