There, I've said it.
I've given it my best shot this semester, but my heart just isn't in it anymore. It's all I can do to get out of bed most days, and the idea of doing research in my current state is just too much. I was barely keeping my head above water until last week. My mother took ill and so did my cat. Between trips to the veterinarian and waits in the ER, I couldn't get anything done.
Yesterday I slept for 15 hours straight. Woke up, did some research and went back to bed. I was so cold, I could hardly stop shivering. This is just the way it is most days for me now.
My brilliant DH will be defending his doctoral work in two weeks time. I thought that once he had his PhD, it would make me want to work doubly hard to finish mine. But really, it's just the opposite. I truly don't care today.
Do I withdraw?
Wait another week?
Or just go back to bed?
Pray - Maybe God has a new direction for you?
ReplyDeleteHope you feel better soon!
(((hugz)))
Wait another week.
ReplyDeleteThe more permanent an action, the more time it needs for proper consideration.
What will you regret in 10 years? What will you look back on with wiser, older eyes and wish for yourself?
Hope you feel better.
M
Is it possible to talk to the head of your program, and maybe take a break but not completely withdraw from the program?
ReplyDeleteHang in there!